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Philosophical Monday: Refusal of the Call [What a FELA!]
So thanks to constant nudging from the fabulous Gina Ko, I ended up seeing FELA! yesterday. It doesn’t seem enough to say that it was a revelation or that I spent near bout the entirety of the second act in tears. No, to do it justice, I pretty much have to talk about it all week. Yes, seriously — because the thoughts it inspired in me don’t really make sense when presented together.
FELA! has a very interesting structure, in that for a good 4o minutes, you think it’s going to revolve around the last Nigerian-based concert of real-life Nigerian activist/singer Fela Kuti. But then it surprises you by taking on a narrative, and you find that this show isn’t centered around the concert, so much as it is centered around the main dramatic question, which is simply, “Will Fela leave Nigeria?”
This all got me to thinking about refusal of the call. In the Hero’s Journey, there’s always a bit where the hero resist going on a mission, falling in love, entering the karate competition, etcetera, etcetera…
Most people’s real lives don’t fit into a neat hero structure. But I find that refusal of the call is the one act that we all have in common. For example, on my writing journey, I’ve attempted to do many other things outside of writing stories as originally attended. That was refusal of the call. Though I enjoyed and was inspired by my year in Japan, I would call that a 365-day refusal of the call. And I now wonder if pursuing screenwriting wasn’t a seven-year refusal of my true calling. Most writers have a huge refusal of the call in their past — maybe not Jonathan Safron Foer — but it really is shocking how many authors have wanted to write since we were children … and then tried to do something else.
Of course, refusal of the call extends to non-writers as well. I’d go as far to assert that if you don’t have a major refusal of the call that you can point to in your life, then you are probably deep into the process of refusing the call as we speak.
So consider this: are you refusing the call? And also consider this: what would happen if you took that mission, fell in love with somebody you’ve been resisting, entered that competition, OR started writing that book today?
Ernessa,
It is great to read your reaction to the show. It never occurred to me to see it as an individual “refusal of the call”– I saw it as a collective call to action for us to get engaged and to make positive changes in our world. But then reading your post made me think that maybe I’m seeing it that way because I’m realizing my personal calling is to be more directly engaged in politics. I’ve been refusing the call for awhile–coming with all kinds of good reasons to stay in my very stable and well respected job as a professor. Interesting that FELA’s mother basically tells him he has to stay and fight even if it means dying–which means my excuses and reasons for “refusing the call” are certainly not legitimate.
I’m with you Katrina. It’s been a challenge to continuously challenge myself, b/c I know that I could probably sustain a career out of writing 32C over and over again. But I remind myself that no one ever dies thinking, “I’m so glad I played it safe. I’m just all kinds of satisfied that I never took that chance.”
Wow, Miss. Ernessa.
I love this – you definitely opened this to a whole level for me. This is really a great perspective; how do we reach our true potential, what is holding us back, and what actions are we going to take to make it happen? I love the week long discussion.
Thanks, Gina! I don’t think we ever reach or true potential, tho. Constantly striving=living a great life imo.