Wow! It’s Wednesday: About Your Lifetime Calling

Dec 03, 2008 8 Comments by

So the other day The Anonymous Smithie from My, You Really Have Put On Weight hepped her readers to this fantastic New Yorker piece written by Malcolm Gladwell which I think every artists should read yesterday.

It’s framed by the story of Ben Fountain, a lawyer, who quits his job to write full-time and finds literary success with a well-reviewed book of stories set in Haiti … over 18 years later. The article then goes on to talk about the many, many artists who have found success later in life:

Yes, there was Orson Welles, peaking as a director at twenty-five. But then there was Alfred Hitchcock, who made “Dial M for Murder,” “Rear Window,” “To Catch a Thief,” “The Trouble with Harry,” “Vertigo,” “North by Northwest,” and “Psycho”—one of the greatest runs by a director in history—between his fifty-fourth and sixty-first birthdays. Mark Twain published “Adventures of Huckleberry Finn” at forty-nine. Daniel Defoe wrote “Robinson Crusoe” at fifty-eight.

The thing is these aren’t just flash in the pan examples. For every wunderkind like Jonathan Safran Foer, there is a Ben Fountain.

Art, contrary to popular belief, does not belong to the young. Let me say that again, because if you like me, sometimes get down about having not “made it” by now and feel yourself looking into a bleak future in which you might never fully “make it” the way you want to, you may need to hear it again.

Art does not belong to the young. You don’t have to be a genius from an early age to be a good artist. In fact, success later in life might make you a better artist. I really like Jonathan Safran Foer’s work, but I think he has a lot of trouble with writing women beautifully but not very well. At least that’s what I took away from his second novel, Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close.

On the opposite side of that spectrum is Junot Diaz. I read his first collection of short stories, Drown, in 1996, and could not wait to read the novel, that everyone in the literary world seemed to waiting for with baited breath. That novel, The Brief and Wonderous Life of Oscar Wao wasn’t published until late 2007. It is an instant classic, that seems to touch everyone who reads it. Every single woman in his novel is written so beautifully and well it is damn near heart-breaking. And I’d challenge readers to list a better-written mother-daughter relationship than the one in this book. It’s filled with such terrible love, that I suddenly did not mind having to wait over a decade for it.

The Brief and Wonderous Life of Oscar Wao won the 2008 Pulitzer Prize for Fiction. Junot Diaz is 39, and if he wants to spend a decade on his next novel, I think he should go right on ahead.

The truth is that I live in a city where people come to make it. I’ve had so many friends leave after a few years. Some, in my opinion, did not try very hard. Some, perhaps rightfully so, got sick of dreaming and never achieving.

And there are those, of course, like me, who finally find their focus in Los Angeles. I realized about three years into my tenure here that I did not want to be a screenwriter or TV scribe as originally planned. I am not a fan of hierarchies or extreme politics and so many things about these two worlds has become increasingly off-putting to me. I loved playwriting, but it’s never been something that I could do well unless I was unhappy, and I’ve been very happy for awhile now. So despite a terrible market I’ve chosen to quit my full-time radio writing job and pursue novel writing and DIY journalism again, my original loves, and perhaps my true callings. I know that I really love Los Angeles now, because I could do what I’m currently doing anywhere and I prefer to do it here.

Still, I often wake up in the middle of the night scared. What if Molly Ringwald Ending doesn’t get published? What if I’m not a good enough writer to pull off what’s in my head for my next novel, Supersonic? What if Fierce and Nerdy never finds the audience to justify the hours I put into it? What if I’ve been working this hard on writing projects for so many years and none of them ever, ever pan out? It’s terrifying.

But having read this article, a certain calm has come over me. Something in the universe whispers, “Just keep on doing the work. Don’t let the fear stop you.”

Here’s the truth. I might not make it until I’m 80, but dammit, I’ll make it as long as I’m persistant and don’t give up. And so will you.

Just keep at it.

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In addition to running Fierce and Nerdy, Ernessa T. Carter is the author of 32 CANDLES, a romantic comedy that is totally worth buying.
  • Redheaded Stepchild

    i enjoyed that article, too, and for similar reasons.

    new york is a place where people come to "make it," too, and i know very few people in the performing arts world here who aren't constantly beating themselves up for not doing more or better. that nasty "you're too old, it won't happen" voice in my head is really active. i've been telling myself that i was too old since i was 25.

    which is ABSURD. beyond which…not helpful. it doesn't help me get anything done, it just leads to sitting around feeling sad and hopeless and washed up. at age 30.

    screw that voice. it isn't even telling the truth: i've done three musicals this year, am planning a reading and a cabaret, and sing at musical theatre salons, so clearly i AM doing stuff.

  • Redheaded Stepchild

    i enjoyed that article, too, and for similar reasons.

    new york is a place where people come to "make it," too, and i know very few people in the performing arts world here who aren't constantly beating themselves up for not doing more or better. that nasty "you're too old, it won't happen" voice in my head is really active. i've been telling myself that i was too old since i was 25.

    which is ABSURD. beyond which…not helpful. it doesn't help me get anything done, it just leads to sitting around feeling sad and hopeless and washed up. at age 30.

    screw that voice. it isn't even telling the truth: i've done three musicals this year, am planning a reading and a cabaret, and sing at musical theatre salons, so clearly i AM doing stuff.

  • Redheaded Stepchild

    and ultimately, the mechanics around who gets recognized and who doesn't aren't solely in our hands. what we do control is the work we do, and if that's making us happy, that's what's important.

    the world will come around or it won't, but at least i'll be myself. and doing work that interests me.

    i'm like a fine wine, dude: better with age.

  • Redheaded Stepchild

    and ultimately, the mechanics around who gets recognized and who doesn't aren't solely in our hands. what we do control is the work we do, and if that's making us happy, that's what's important.

    the world will come around or it won't, but at least i'll be myself. and doing work that interests me.

    i'm like a fine wine, dude: better with age.

  • http://intensedebate.com/people/AmyQOTWF AmyQOTWF

    As an old woman, I'm loving this line of dialogue :) I know that I have more confidence in my own voice now than I did when I was 22. I have more patience with myself and processes too.(Though I'm nowhere near as busy as Redheaded Stepchild!)

    I read an article in Wired a year or so about 2 types of genius. Early and Late. It gave me hope that my genius is hangin out in my brain, and gonna leap out very soon… Here is the article:

    http://www.wired.com/wired/archive/14.07/genius.h…

    I particularly like the comparison between Ezra Pound and Robert Frost. I'm feeling Frost-y

  • http://intensedebate.com/people/AmyQOTWF AmyQOTWF

    As an old woman, I'm loving this line of dialogue :) I know that I have more confidence in my own voice now than I did when I was 22. I have more patience with myself and processes too.(Though I'm nowhere near as busy as Redheaded Stepchild!)

    I read an article in Wired a year or so about 2 types of genius. Early and Late. It gave me hope that my genius is hangin out in my brain, and gonna leap out very soon… Here is the article:

    http://www.wired.com/wired/archive/14.07/genius.h…

    I particularly like the comparison between Ezra Pound and Robert Frost. I'm feeling Frost-y

  • http://intensedebate.com/people/keldoo keldoo

    I love this concept, particularly as Amy pointed out, as an old broad. I think my genius has changed over the years. I've got some new perspectives and growing talents that I didn't have 10 years ago. I hear you, RedHeaded and I have friends who have won Golden Globes and friends who can't get auditions. I wasn't sure I wanted fight for either of those any more, so I ditched it all. I didn't have the drive to do it. I couldn't be happier, because only now, since gaining that wisdom, have I been able to forge ahead and follow my heart. My weird, erratic, passionate heart….

  • http://intensedebate.com/people/keldoo keldoo

    I love this concept, particularly as Amy pointed out, as an old broad. I think my genius has changed over the years. I've got some new perspectives and growing talents that I didn't have 10 years ago. I hear you, RedHeaded and I have friends who have won Golden Globes and friends who can't get auditions. I wasn't sure I wanted fight for either of those any more, so I ditched it all. I didn't have the drive to do it. I couldn't be happier, because only now, since gaining that wisdom, have I been able to forge ahead and follow my heart. My weird, erratic, passionate heart….

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