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The Awkward Side of Dropping 40 Pounds [Philosophical Monday]

We live in a culture where dropping 40 pounds is supposed to solve all your problems, make you feel like you can do anything, and moreover make you feel GREAT! But I’ve been 40 pounds lighter for almost three months now, and while I welcome the extra energy that comes from being at my pre-baby weight, in the case of trying to get pregnant again, dropping 40 pounds has made things a bit … difficult.

For one thing nothing really fits right anymore. Though, I’m technically at the same weight that I was at pre-baby, as any mom can tell you, that weight is not at all deposited in the same places. The Anthropologie dresses that looked banging on me last summer, now sag in the chest area. The tops that I used to wear before getting pregnant cling a bit too tightly to my now soft middle. I can no longer fit the designer jeans that I purchased pre-baby. But I also no longer fit the designer jeans that I brought when I was 40 pounds curvier. The answer of course is to buy designer jeans and dresses in my old size that are made for curvier women or get the larger stuff tailored.

But then why spend money on new dresses and jeans and tailoring if I might be pregnant now or if it doesn’t work out again, a few more months from now? So … awkward. I don’t want to even talk about the bra situation. That’s just a state of pure chaos right now.

I think the solution might be to be more careful about my purchases in the future. Yes, this looks great on me now, but how will it look with a belly? If it turns out that a future pregnancy isn’t in the cards, will it look baggy and dumpy as I get thinner?

It’s going to take a while to build a perfect wardrobe of things that look great on me at any size. Meanwhile I’ll just have to come to terms with that strange feeling of “having nothing to wear” and not being able to do anything about it. So is life.