My Newfound Desire for Bananas, Swimming, and Uggs [NewlyNested]

I have used this blog to discuss my anxiety towards having children several times.  I always knew that up until I was pregnant I would never really be certain about having kids.  However, I was also certain that when I had my first child falling into being a mother would come naturally and would be something that I would enjoy.  I am happy to share with you that I am now 22 weeks pregnant.

I am not going to lie or sugar coat it, the first trimester sucked.  But all those bad feelings were a good thing because it meant the pregnancy was progressing.  So even when I got sick and could barely eat I was happy.  The only surprise that I really had was how un-maternal I felt.  I was so certain that when I became pregnant those hormones would not only help the baby grow but would also help me grow into motherhood.  Even though I was excited and happy, maternal would not be the word I would use to describe how I felt.  Not until my 19 week ultrasound when I found out that we were having a girl did my maternal instincts kick in.  The first example of this was when we got our ultrasound pictures and I refused to send the picture of her gender area to anyone.  I simply told my husband, “She is a lady and no one needs to see our little girl’s parts.”

This baby girl has changed me a lot in many surprising ways beyond my new motherly instincts.  First, I always hated bananas.  Now, I walk through my kitchen longingly eyeing them, imagining how good they must taste, but too scared to try them because I know they always make me throw up.  Recently I became brave and have shared a few bananas with my husband, loving every single bite.

I also used to hate swimming but now the community pool looks so inviting.  Last week I began swimming and it felt amazing.  I don’t care how round my belly looks right now in a swimsuit, the feeling of being in the water is so light and freeing.  I even find doing laps pleasurable, instead of boring, as I enjoy the feeling of the water gliding over my skin.

Finally, I didn’t understand the appeal of Uggs in California until recently.  Now every time I go to the movies I just want to slip my feet into a pair of them.  I have become so obsessed with them that I even registered for a matching baby pair.  I know it’s ridiculous, but it also seems ridiculously fabulous to have some matching designer accessories with my little girl.