My Newfound Desire for Bananas, Swimming, and Uggs [NewlyNested]
I have used this blog to discuss my anxiety towards having children several times. I always knew that up until I was pregnant I would never really be certain about having kids. However, I was also certain that when I had my first child falling into being a mother would come naturally and would be something that I would enjoy. I am happy to share with you that I am now 22 weeks pregnant.
I am not going to lie or sugar coat it, the first trimester sucked. But all those bad feelings were a good thing because it meant the pregnancy was progressing. So even when I got sick and could barely eat I was happy. The only surprise that I really had was how un-maternal I felt. I was so certain that when I became pregnant those hormones would not only help the baby grow but would also help me grow into motherhood. Even though I was excited and happy, maternal would not be the word I would use to describe how I felt. Not until my 19 week ultrasound when I found out that we were having a girl did my maternal instincts kick in. The first example of this was when we got our ultrasound pictures and I refused to send the picture of her gender area to anyone. I simply told my husband, “She is a lady and no one needs to see our little girl’s parts.”
This baby girl has changed me a lot in many surprising ways beyond my new motherly instincts. First, I always hated bananas. Now, I walk through my kitchen longingly eyeing them, imagining how good they must taste, but too scared to try them because I know they always make me throw up. Recently I became brave and have shared a few bananas with my husband, loving every single bite.
I also used to hate swimming but now the community pool looks so inviting. Last week I began swimming and it felt amazing. I don’t care how round my belly looks right now in a swimsuit, the feeling of being in the water is so light and freeing. I even find doing laps pleasurable, instead of boring, as I enjoy the feeling of the water gliding over my skin.
Finally, I didn’t understand the appeal of Uggs in California until recently. Now every time I go to the movies I just want to slip my feet into a pair of them. I have become so obsessed with them that I even registered for a matching baby pair. I know it’s ridiculous, but it also seems ridiculously fabulous to have some matching designer accessories with my little girl.